i’m out here with a bathroom cleaner than what I had before
here the ground is dry, the shower’s fine, and everything seems better
but there’s something that i’m missing from this floor
i guess with home and somewhere else, it’s either or
being away from my family, i’ve had to look for myself
being away from my friends, i feel i’ve lost my good health
my mind is falling apart, i feel a hole in my heart
and sometimes i feel like i just got nobody to tell
it’s not like home is perfect or anything, i fight with my friends
i have these traumatizing memories still stuck in my head
it’s like the bathroom in my dorm, shit gets wetter than wet
but every time i return, i feel less lonely again
i guess it’s good that i can put my pants on comfortably
in this hotel room, out some place that i can never be seen
i feel forgotten in this new foreign life
but maybe it’s not worth remembering kai

and so i lost me
in this late november rain
and you forgot me
you forgot our love and pain
i live through phone calls
my face is fading from your brain
i’m in my bath stall
i only wash myself and pray
i hope you’re happy

let's pretend that I never left
let's be friends that never forget
what's here in my heart is a meaningful longing
I wish I could regain this sense of belonging
and now this toilets unfamiliar
the showerheads peculiar
not like the one at home is better;
but I've never cried here before
sometimes life will pull you onwards and you're not able to stop
I feel like time is feeling somber, pulling faster just to block
out the emotion (yeah, yeah)
I want to block out the emotion (yeah, yeah)
I squeeze my hand to see if I feel it
the grounds not dirty, I don't have to deal with it
nothing means much anymore
I can step on this bathroom floor
something feels like I won't ever get to see you the same
when I look in the mirror, I've ceased to know my own face

and so i lost me
in this late november rain
and you forgot me
you forgot our love and pain
i live through phone calls
my face is fading from your brain
i’m in my bath stall
i only wash myself and pray
you said you lost me
in this late November rain
I said I'm sorry
and then you saw me cry again
i live through phone calls
don't have reception in this place
I'm in my bath stall
I only wash myself and pray
i hope you’re happy

and so I lost me
in this late November rain
I said I'm sorry
and then you saw me cry again
if you forgot me
something easy to forget
let's get some coffee
let's pretend we never met